So, I decided to do the last 5 sessions of TMS – the last week – without updates. I wanted to take the time to absorb it all, process it, and then reflect.
So, again, it was very different from last time, for a lot of reasons. One, I wasn’t in a full blown depressive breakdown since my anxiety is what presented first. And, as I said previously, what depression symptoms were being brought on by the anxiety quickly dissipated and then disappeared. In all honesty, I’m not sure if the TMS really did “wonders” for my anxiety. I do know that it has been made so incredibly better since I started, and that’s what counts. I’ve changed the dosage on my Viibryd, tried “right side” TMS, and learned a lot from Dr. D at the center about anxiety and depression – both together and separately. All of these things combined have made things so incredibly better that I couldn’t be happier. I know I have options going forward, and that in itself is priceless. I’ve learned how to better manage the anxiety, and learned that I need to deal with it daily just like I do with my depression – and not to assume that one is caused by the other – they are separate and equally deadly – so I have to be constantly monitoring both.
The one thing that has stood out very much to me is that my empathic abilities have skyrocketed over the last few months. I feel in my gut that this is because of the treatment this time. I feel like I’ve been moved to a better understanding of my thoughts, brain activity, emotions, etc., and because of that, I’ve become “free and open” to receive energy and read things in a healthy way. I’ve always had these abilities, but now that I’m learning more about protecting myself from negative energy, how to calm down (so to speak) and listen to what my heart and soul are really feeling and saying to me, I’m experiencing a growth in this “thing” that I now am sure is a huge gift. If I process my feelings – depression, anxiety, frustration, etc. – as they come up, and with absolute clarity, my mind is clearer and I am more able to receive the energy from others that gives me insight. I know it all sounds a little wacky to some of you, but I firmly believe in this because of I’ve had a lifetime of these experiences that I couldn’t explain, started to read about, and that have been proven to me over time.
So, once again, because of this experience, I have been given gifts that I never expected. So incredibly blessed, and a major advocate for TMS therapy. I know more and more research is being done every day to find how it can help with other ailments, and I firmly believe that in the not too distant future this will be helping many more people who are suffering.
Thank you again, to everyone at So Cal TMS………. Dr. Todd Hutton, my wonderful friend/tech Tracy, Doctor D., Stephanie, Brandon……..anyone I’ve come across and worked with. You are an amazing group of people and I thank all of you from the bottom of my heart. You have all become a special part of my heart since we first crossed paths over a year ago, and I’m sure we will be meeting again down the road.
Much love friends!!