So, I think maybe my anxiety is getting better. I talked to my regular psychiatrist on Wednesday, and we are going to officially up my Viibryd to 30mg a day instead of 20mg. I’ve been taking 30mg since Wednesday, and I do feel a little less agitated. It could be the higher dose, it could be the right-side TMS, or just TMS in general – who knows. But I do feel like it’s getting better.
I even went out on Friday, and didn’t get to bed until 2:30am. Keep in mind, I had been up since 4:30am – that’s 22 hours wide awake!! And, I had a great time! Which is perfection!
I’m still taking the Xanax, but I’ve only had .25mg both today and yesterday, which is better than the usual .50-.75mg. None of these are high doses, by any means – but any chance of me not taking any type of “benzo” is a win in my book.
I did sleep a lot yesterday, but I knew I would. When I’m up for that long it takes a lot for me to recuperate. And today I even ran a few errands and went to visit with my Aunt.
Another note, which I really think is huge, I finally got an appointment to go see my “female” doctor so that I can have a complete physical, and have my hormones checked for the “menopause” thing. Sorry for the TMI, but I just started my period again today – which is the 3rd time in 5 weeks. I’m over it! I’ve been reading a lot about menopause, especially with how it relates to depression, and it can absolutely have a HUGE impact. If you take my depression, and add in hormonal imbalance, that’s not a good combination. And I have every other sign/symptom of menopause as well. So, maybe this whole anxiety thing is really hormone related? Or at least it’s a major contributor? I’ll let you know. If I have to do hormone replacement therapy or whatever you know I will – I can’t afford to let anything – no matter what it is – effect my mental health in any way.
I’m not sure, but I think I have anywhere between 4 and 8 more TMS treatments this round. I’m going to get the clarification tomorrow, and I’ll let you know.
That’s it for now friends. I’m tired, and I really need to take a shower. I’m yucky/sweaty/gross!